Ramblings on June 24, 2016

The thing that people don't understand is that transgender people are not trying to gain rights to use the restrooms and locker rooms assigned the opposite gender to get a sneak peek at your privates. They're trying to use them because they are uncomfortable with their birth-assigned gender and are trying to become the person they feel they were meant to be.

I just answered a pre-recorded, extraordinarily transphobic phone call to my parents house. They'd gotten a young girl to record, "Hi, my name is *Lucy* and I don't want boys in my locker room."

I'm ashamed to live in a family that supports these types of things. I can't expect them to understand, though. The closed-mindedness of what seems to be their entire generation is due to the fact that they were raised to believe the way they do, and there was very little awareness of today's issues.

My own mother has told me that she is convinced I've been possessed by the devil for my actions and beliefs after a conversation in which I expressed that I find nothing wrong with homosexuality, and that being transgender is NOT a "publicity stunt".

I can't believe that my own parents, who I once believed to be thoughtful and caring towards everyone, would turn into such monsters inside my own head. My opinion of them has changed so drastically within the last two years that I'm not even sure they're the ones who raised me.

*is super angry* *will expand on this later*

Ramblings on April 5, 2016

I don't think I've ever been as stressed as I am right now in my entire life. If high school is this stressful, I don't even want to think about college. Besides, what's the point? You pay $20k a year, nearly rip all your hair out from stress, and end up with a sheet of paper and $100k in debt. *flips off American education system* But hey, at least you can get a decent job, right?

Wrong.

So many people I know have gone through the process of getting their bachelors degree, and they end up working at Subway for the next God knows how long. So, why is it that everyone seems to think that you can't make it anywhere without a bachelors degree? Surely that makes you overqualified to be working at a Subway. Besides, what's so bad about going to a Community College, not having any debt, and finding a decent job with my degree right afterward? Any job I get with an associates degree holds the promise of promotions and further learning, not just slicing bread all day. (disclaimer: I fucking love Subway. I'm just using it as an example while avoiding the stereotypical McDonald's example.)

I was just offered a job that starts at $15/hour. I was talking to someone the other day about college, and how I think it can be a waste of time and money. The person I was talking to said this to me, "If you think college is so worthless, try getting a good job without it." I replied that I had been offered above stated job, and she cut back with, "$15/hour doesn't get you very far in life. You'll figure that out." That's nearly double what I make at my current job. It'll get me a hell of a lot farther than working in a cafeteria for a bunch of ungrateful bitches. But hey. To each their own. (Said woman I was talking to is my supervisor, by the way.)

For fuck's sake. College is NOT FOR EVERYONE. If you think you have the right to tell someone that they're not going to get anywhere in life if they don't do things the way you did things, maybe you should take a look at your own life first. My supervisor makes only about a dollar an hour more than I do, and only works a few more hours a week than I do. Jee, I'd be doing a hell of a lot better than her if I accepted the job I was just offered. And she has a bachelors degree that isn't even remotely related to cafeteria work. Hm. I see something wrong with her logic. 

So, in conclusion, anyone who thinks that college is necessary to succeed and is trying to tell you that when you've stated outright that you are not interested in the slightest can go fuck themselves. You may not know what you want to do yet, or you may want to work for a while to get some real-life experience. If anyone's trying to pressure you to live your life a certain way, tell them to fuck off. It's your decision, your sanity, and your own path. 

I'm going to end this here before I go completely batshit crazy.

You're all awesome.